Day 3

I'm going to skip someone I love for the end. I have too much on my mind right now to attempt to write that one. So Ill go ahead and do Ex Bestfriend. It'll probably be a long one, so prepare yourself.

dear ex:
dear girl I hate:
dear someone I love:
dear ex bestfriend:
dear bestfriend:
dear mom:
dear dad:
dear old me:
dear new me:

You know, I wouldn't say that I really regret our friendship. I mean all in all, we had some really good times. But I guess the more you are around someone the better you get to know them, and I think that's what happened to us. Honestly I think if we were to be in a room together by ourselves, I'd probably try to murder you from all the shit that you've tried pulling in the past 3 years. You're an attention whore, and everything has to be about you 24/7. With all the rumors about my boyfriend (your ex, not the same girl from the girl I hate letter) you started, to the shit talking about me and all the other friends you've lost that have been my friend way before you've ever met them, you deserve all the shit that happens in your life. I'm sorry, and I know that's mean. How can someone go from being best friends to thinking something like that? Well, like I said, I feel like you just love to have everything about you, and when its not you find some way to make it about you. Its really not that cool. If you were at all smart, like I know that you actually are you'd realise that you have lost more than 5 friends within the past 5 years. If you would think about it, maybe that means there is something wrong with you and maybe you should change your attitude about somethings. The other day you got into a so called 'fight' at school. Personally (not even for the fact it was with my best friend) I wish you would have gotten the shit beat out of you. I think just one time someone needs to show you up. It wont be me. The drama I have with you is gone, and I could careless about you and the choices you make today. Its upsetting that things ended the way they did. And its not like it was over anything major, but I guess one thing led to another and things just started to build up. I really hope that as you get older you learn that you're life is what you make it and you don't always have to be involved in drama like you always are. I hope you grow up and become mature. Even though we are no longer friends and never will be, I hope you find you're way in this world and it ends up being everything and more for you.

From a friend you'll never get back due to everything.

I dont want to do this on Facebook. Day 1

Every one is doing this stuff on their status for Facebook, I think its kind of lame they're doing it on there. Smart people would use notes. I think it would be better.. That's just me. I wanna do it, but I don't want to do it on Facebook. So who better to share it with than the only person who reads my blog, Trevor? He is the only one I send the link to. Other than every once in a while my tumblr. But Ill start, I'm only doing one of these a day though.

dear ex:
dear girl I hate:
dear someone I love:
dear ex bestfriend:
dear bestfriend:
dear mom:
dear dad:
dear old me:
dear new me:

Well lets see, I liked you a lot. You know, I actually thought I loved you. Little did I know, I was wrong. I know I broke your heart when I broke things off with you, I know that. And I'm really sorry for doing it. But YOU made me wait 4 years to get the relationship I thought I wanted. When everything was said and done and we were finally a couple, I tried so hard to make myself believe that I was happy to be with you, but truth is I wasn't. I know from past experiences that if you aren't happy, you shouldn't be in a relationship and lead that person on. So that's what I did. I had to end it. I couldn't do that to you. You weren't a horrible person like most exes are to a girl, you were actually nice, somewhat. You made me happy for the time being when I was down. But I just couldn't deal with the waiting, I told you that. And you knew yourself that while you made me wait those last 2 and half months before we dated, I was falling for someone else. You deserved so much better, you deserved to be someone who would make your time worth while. Although, I cant' say we officially dated for very long 2 weeks if that. But I consider you an ex, we have history 4 years to be exact. You know, maybe me ending everything was good in the end. I know you were wanting to go back to Puerto Rico after you graduated, but I know that if/when we had ever dated you wouldn't go if I was in the picture. Now that I'm out, you're back home where you wanted to be, and I hope you are happy being back there. Yes, when we broke up you got on my nerves. You kept telling me you wanted me back, you couldn't picture you're life with anyone else. But I guess that's what happens when you're heart breaks, you beg for people back. And I can honestly say all the times we were 'on and off' unofficially, never once was I heartbroken over it, I guess that right there should have been the first sign I didn't really want you. I know you had a future for us. You told me how you wanted our lives to be when we got married when we had kids and all that stuff. But another thing, that just wasn't the life I saw for myself. You know, its probably a good thing you will never read this, because I'm sure you hate me now and you would just laugh in my face. But I guess in short, I just want to tell you that I hope you are happy, and I'm sorry for hurting you. It wasn't my intention.

From, just a girl seeking forgiveness.