Every one is doing this stuff on their status for Facebook, I think its kind of lame they're doing it on there. Smart people would use notes. I think it would be better.. That's just me. I wanna do it, but I don't want to do it on Facebook. So who better to share it with than the only person who reads my blog, Trevor? He is the only one I send the link to. Other than every once in a while my tumblr. But Ill start, I'm only doing one of these a day though.
dear ex:
dear girl I hate:
dear someone I love:
dear ex bestfriend:
dear bestfriend:
dear mom:
dear dad:
dear old me:
dear new me:
Well lets see, I liked you a lot. You know, I actually thought I loved you. Little did I know, I was wrong. I know I broke your heart when I broke things off with you, I know that. And I'm really sorry for doing it. But YOU made me wait 4 years to get the relationship I thought I wanted. When everything was said and done and we were finally a couple, I tried so hard to make myself believe that I was happy to be with you, but truth is I wasn't. I know from past experiences that if you aren't happy, you shouldn't be in a relationship and lead that person on. So that's what I did. I had to end it. I couldn't do that to you. You weren't a horrible person like most exes are to a girl, you were actually nice, somewhat. You made me happy for the time being when I was down. But I just couldn't deal with the waiting, I told you that. And you knew yourself that while you made me wait those last 2 and half months before we dated, I was falling for someone else. You deserved so much better, you deserved to be someone who would make your time worth while. Although, I cant' say we officially dated for very long 2 weeks if that. But I consider you an ex, we have history 4 years to be exact. You know, maybe me ending everything was good in the end. I know you were wanting to go back to Puerto Rico after you graduated, but I know that if/when we had ever dated you wouldn't go if I was in the picture. Now that I'm out, you're back home where you wanted to be, and I hope you are happy being back there. Yes, when we broke up you got on my nerves. You kept telling me you wanted me back, you couldn't picture you're life with anyone else. But I guess that's what happens when you're heart breaks, you beg for people back. And I can honestly say all the times we were 'on and off' unofficially, never once was I heartbroken over it, I guess that right there should have been the first sign I didn't really want you. I know you had a future for us. You told me how you wanted our lives to be when we got married when we had kids and all that stuff. But another thing, that just wasn't the life I saw for myself. You know, its probably a good thing you will never read this, because I'm sure you hate me now and you would just laugh in my face. But I guess in short, I just want to tell you that I hope you are happy, and I'm sorry for hurting you. It wasn't my intention.
From, just a girl seeking forgiveness.
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