Yeah, Ive only been with my boyfriend for 7 months, and I love him. I know for a fact that he loves me too. But honestly sometimes I get the feeling that maybe he doesn't wanna be with me. I guess you could be sitting there thinking, if you know he loves you then why do you feel like that? Well the answer is pretty simple. He doesn't tell me how he feels about me anymore. Sure he will tell me that he loves me I don't know how many times a day. But that's all. I'm not saying he always needs to tell me how amazing I am. But it wouldn't hurt to do it every once in a while. I don't think that's asking for much.
This is weird but I can tell you the very last time he told me how great I was and all of the reasons why he loved me. It was September 12th. Here we are 2 and a half months later, still nothing. I tell him stuff like that maybe once a week. Even though I tell him just because I want to make sure he knows he's amazing, a little part of me is only doing it to see if maybe he'll say something back. But it just doesn't seem to work like that.
Who knows maybe this is just part of my insecurity kicking in. He's my first real boyfriend, my first love. So maybe its natural for me to feel upset about this. I don't know. I just feel that you should always constantly tell someone why they are amazing, they might forget it. That might be what holds them together. Espically someone like me who thinks so less of them self.
I know, the only way through a good relationship is communication. But I don't want to bring this up to him and feel like he is obligated to tell me how he feels. I want him to do it because he wants me to know how amazing I am. Not only that, but I don't want him to think that I don't think he loves me, and that our relationship could only consist of one thing. Becasue it completly doesn't. He would be very upset if I thought that way.
I guess this is just something I'm going to have to get over.
Anyway, I was just sharing my thoughts at the moment with no one in particular. Well good night whoever one day decides to read this.
Sleep tight.
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