Lets see, I don't even know where to start. A lot of things happened, mostly with my friend, the one I wrote the angry best friend post about. I'll update you all on that. Then there is the whole finally talking to my boyfriend about telling me how he feels. Then drama with my mom. Ugh too much. I'll sum it all up as best as I can though. Sorry if it gets boring at all. My life cant always be that interesting.
Well lets see I last started off with my best friend being mad at me. I know you guys don't know why, but I'll tell you. I told him he looked gay. But like I keep saying, he asked me for my opinion. Anyway, I wrote something on facebook and I said how it was sad that a friendship could change because of one thing. He thought it would be best to go on his facebook and say how it was sad that I was making this all seem like it was his fault, I never did that. So me being the outspoken person I am, I texted him. I wasn't about to let that shit fly. All in all the conversation went bad. He told me he wasn't going to talk to me until I apologized. That wasn't going to happen. In my mind I did nothing wrong. A day or 2 goes by and then this is when shit really hit the fan. His mom wrote about me on facebook. Let me just say when a 50 year old woman writes about a teenage and then tells me I need to grow up don't expect me NOT to say something back. So I wrote his mom a message and told her that she was an older woman and need to stop saying shit about me on facebook. That this was between me and her son. She tried telling me that she never used my name so I must have felt guilty. I wrote he back and said that I didn't feel guilty that it was obvious, and she knew I was right. That's why she deleted all of the comments and post she had made about me. That's right, it was more than one. Well, after me and her talked a little bit more we became okay. I think she might have understood where I was coming from, which is so hard to believe. Anyway, my birthday was on Wednesday, and she said happy birthday to me, my 'friend' and his girlfriend who is also my 'friend' wished me a happy birthday. Which you have no idea how shocking it was for me to hear them tell me. And I know how shitty is it to have drama going on the week of your birthday. And soooo, where things take a turn for the better. This Friday that just passed was like a normal day for me. I was walking to my car where the whole group parks and out of no where my friend tells me that my hair looked pretty.. I was confused as fuck. But I said thank you and he asked me about it and I answered his questions. It was surprising that he was talking to me seeing as I didn't apologize. Well, after that we stood there talking to the group for about 15 minutes and were chillin. When his girlfriend, also may I remind you once again my friend too before all of this, it was so clear that she was pissed off he was talking to me. I don't know why she was acting like that, but she was. It makes me wonder about things some.Well by then end of all of this my boyfriend and I were leaving. My boyfriend left and I was backing out I turned to leave and there he was smiling and waving bye to me.
I really don't know what to think of this. Maybe something good. Maybe he's over everything and we can go back to the way things were. I don't know. I guess I'll find out tomorrow when I go to school. I hope everything goes back to normal I don't want to deal with any of this crap anymore. Although his girlfriend, what a bitch. I'm sorry I know I was friends with her before, but its like you were my friend you get mad and don't talk when he's mad. Its like you aren't your own individual person, and I don't want to be friends with someone like that.
Hm, what to update on next. I guess I could start with the talk my boyfriend and I had. I know the last time I posted something about him I was upset because I didn't know if he even wanted to be with me, and he didn't tell me how he felt about me anymore. But we talked and all is well. I still had doubts long after that post, and I didn't know what to do anymore. While I was at school, wasn't even there for 5 minutes. And I started to cry, after my boyfriend went to class. I walked into my first period and my best friend had asked me what was wrong and I told her everything. She told me that I should just talk to him because she knew that he still wanted to be with me because she knows our relationship will always last and she said that she can tell that he's loved me more than anything and she can see it when we are together. I told her I didn't know if I was going to talk to him but if I did Id let her know. It actually happened to be 3 days later when we talked. He took me out to dinner and everything was alright, everything seemed to be better than it had in awhile. We came back to my house and we were watching a movie, and that's when for some reason I was doubting everything. I was sitting there and he could tell that something was wrong with me. He just knew it. But he also knew that if he was going to ask me I would just say that everything was okay. After awhile he started to see some tears he asked me and I said nothing. Well when the movie ended he looked at me again and he asked me again, and for some reason I couldn't just hold it in anymore. I broke down and I told him.. While I cried he sat there and held me in his arms and when I was finally done he started to talk to me. He told me that he was sorry for not telling me how he feels anymore, its just that I should know. Because he said his feeling will never change. He told me he would always love me and that he wouldn't know what he would do with about me. Yeah, I know I'm getting mush and annoying about it. So I'm done. But all in all, we're good. We talked about everything and things couldn't be better.
Blahhh, its my mothers turn now. Right now, she gets on my nerves. She told me that mine and my boyfriend relationship was going to go to shit. I have nothing more to say about that right now.
Anyway I'm pretty sure that's all I have to update everyone on. I'm sorry that I haven't been on as much as I should. But I'll try to post more often.
I was trying to aim for one a day. But I don't think I'll be able to commit to that. So I think for now I'll try to commit to 4 a week. I hope that sounds good to all of you. In the meantime, stay safe, have fun, and Merry Christmas if I don't post by then. :)
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