dear girl I hate:
dear someone I love:
dear dad:
dear old me:
dear new me:
Dad, where do I even begin? You were my hero for the longest time, and now I feel like I'm starting to see the person that you really are. Not that you're all that bad of a person, but I'm seeing more of who everyone claimed you were. And I cant say that I'm really liking it. I love you a lot, and I always will. But you no longer have control over me like when I was younger and I think that scares you. Not that you ever had control over me since I've never lived with you. But you were always clued in about my life, and now you're not. I know about 2 years ago you really wanted me to move in with you, and I hurt and upset you that I didn't. But I think I would have to say that me not moving was a smart decision. I wouldn't be where I am in my life, and I don't think I would be able to deal with that. We've gone through a lot being together. I remember when things would be just about me and you when I would visit you. Now that we know where Brandon is when hes around it's about him too, you've got your girlfriends two daughters and there always around, and now there is Jennifer a sister I didn't know about until a year ago.. I miss how things used to be. And yes, I am well aware that things change, but I don't think I could tell you the last time me and you have done anything just us because now there are just so many kids and it wouldn't be fair to spend the money on just me. But like I said, I guess times change. Soon I'm going to start be getting the money from SS and mom is afraid I'm going to blow it. I wont. I know I need to save it. But once I graduate I wont be getting money anymore, from SS that is. You have to keep paying me Child Support until I'm 21. Not that you pay it. I don't know when I'm going to talk to you about that, but I need to do it soon. I'm afraid that you're going to be upset with me because I told the school I didn't want them to be able to contact you anymore. Yeah, I know for sure you'll be mad over that. Now, you'll no longer be able to contact any of my teachers and vice versa. But I'm tired of hearing everyone bitch and complain about MY life and my decisions especially when and what I do in school. I understand that you and mom are just looking out for me, but I'm old enough and more mature to do things on my own now. Trust me you and mom have raised a great, responsible, mature girl. And I really feel like you and mom don't think or believe in me. And that really upsets me to say that. But trust me, Ill prove both of you wrong.
From, your little girl.
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